One billion visions of Jesus

So today has been a tough one. Several moments where my small girl and I lost it - both with each other and with the small boy. Rough. Very rough.

So after 8, when I went in to turn off her light and say prayers, we sort of talked about it. And sort of prayed about it. About grumpy angry cross (red hot cross) hearts. Then, as topics do with the small girl, she leapt sideways and complained about not seeing Jesus. So I reminded her of the time when she visited heaven. And then she told me about a scary picture/vision she had had.

"Mom, you have to write this down. But it might be too scary. Really scary. I saw Adam and Eve in a cage, a CAGE! And then the cage door opened and they went up some steps into heaven and they were fine."

I asked her what she thought it meant. So she ummed and then said:

"The cage is their hearts. But when they forgave then they could get out and go to heaven."

So after our day, I asked her if she thought that it might be the same for us.

"I guess so, mom."

Then...

"Mom, why doesn't God answer my prayers? When I was 4 and 5 and 6 and 7 I prayed for a pony in my garden, and He never gave me one!" 

I explained that you are not allowed to have a pony in your garden - or a sheep - where we live.

"I know what I can pray. I am going to ask God to give me a billion visions of Jesus for my birthday!" says the small girl.

And that is what we prayed for tonight. And my mommy heart said "Please Lord, answer this prayer in the life of my small girl!"